My 24th B'day...

I don’t know whether it’s the beginning or the end,

But that’s true- I am sad my friend.

I had thought things would bloom as a flower,

I never knew I will become so far.

M far off all of my family;

I regret for being so silly,

My birthday has brought me tears,

When I expected lot many other gifts from my nears and dears,

It took me off from the heart of my mom,

Far off heart of my sis,

I don’t know how to make them realize that it is I who gonna miss.

I have no idea what is going to happen next,

But this was something I didn’t expect.

I m sure for one thing;

After my 24^th birth day has come

My hands are empty n I have nothing.

Nothing to loose nothing to spare,

Because they never realized how much did I care.

I don’t know whether it’s the beginning or the end,

But that’s true- I am sad my friend.

Brightly shinning cloudy Sun (14/10/2011)

Today as I got up early in the morning and as a routine I went to my gallery window to peep out and feel the cool breeze flowing, I saw the reflection of round burning ball in the window pane. That was the rising sun which seemed to be shinning more brightly than usual. I don’t know what it was but I couldn’t take my eyes off the pane till it came out fully after taking a bath in the clouds. The part of Shivalik hills visible through my window had become somewhat blur in vision due to the snowy gathering all around them. I felt bad about the thing that I had to miss that beautiful scenery to prevent myself from missing my statistics lecture. Till the time I stopped at traffic lights I was feeling a little bad somewhere deep in my heart when I gazed at the sun and all my regrets flew away. I was able to see the brightly shinning cloudy sun before me. The scene was so beautiful that I am not able to describe it in words. It was just like as if the brave soldier sun is coming after defeating the big army of clouds. The feeling of victory made its face shine so brightly breaking the clouds into small clusters same as we see when vinegar is added to boiling milk. I feel happy noticing such scenes and relating them with day today life instances.

Is it enough to make me happy???

Getting admission to Govt. Colleges & University campus has always grabbed top positions in my dream list. Since I came to Chandigarh in 2003, I have always been looking forward and putting efforts to make my scores as high so that I can reach the eligibility criteria to get admitted to any course in Uni campus. But I think dreaming about campus studies has almost become invalid in my case as I have got admission in Govt. College for my last step of studying ladder. Its also just like dream coming true as I expected a seat here for one more year BUT provided my entire team is there with me. The most unfortunate thing for me is I am not with my favorite buddies. Another thing which I see is positive is that the teachers have welcomed me with same warmth as they had done 2 years back when i came for bachelor's degree. I am not able to make out whether this will be enough to make me happy that I have made it to re- enter the same institute of education or not because on the first day of my session I am missing my pals. God knows how will I spend one whole year here...

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"Aam aadmi"- Latest synonym to Helpless fellow

With continuous hike in prices of commodities of daily use, it is becoming more and more difficult for a everyone to afford daily meal. Due to such a surprising increase in cost of things of routine consumption, almost every section or class of the society has got affected. I am not sure whether to consider it fortunate or unfortunate that the so called UPPER CLASS is still untouched by the evil of inflation. But I am sure, in next few months the life of these few Blessed people will also experience the change. I am not able to understand the basic reason why the prices of LPG cylinders, kerosene oil, petrol and diesel are increasing on monthly basis?

The only class of people on which this price hike will make maximum effect is that of Middle class. the so called Aam Aadmi. The lower class people are already living in scanty of things and are now used to it. And, the High class is not affected because they already have plenty of everything. But the so called middle class people are always hand to mouth....

Searching for a reason

At some point in life, a point comes when there is sudden outburst of human being. In my case, it happens with loud cries. I do not cry very easily but at some point, even I feel it’s more than enough and I am not able to ignore crying. Just like all those days when I cried aloud, today is also one day when I am feeling like crying. There are so many reason that I am not able to count. My heart and head is feeling so burdened that I can’t express it in words. I just wanna say, “I WANT TO CRY”. I was avoiding giving it a consideration and trying to keep myself busy with other things. Even after putting my best efforts, I am unable to control this emotional outburst. I am feeling very helpless and weak at this point of time. They say if you can control yourself, you can rule the world. But I am unable to control my tears. Tell me what should I do now? I think my yesterday is ruling my today. But I can assure one thing. I will not let it affect my tomorrow. I have always put my best in life. I had tried to take all people I know with me. But I think this time I have failed in making my bonding with my sister perfect. She is happier moving out and roaming with other people than me. On the other hand, my world revolves around her only. I have made a stronger bonding with her from last three years since we shifted in our home here. She is my parents, buddy and of course my guide. I do not whether I am a fool or she is cleverer than me that she is able to enjoy everything without me and I keep on waiting for the time she will get free and accompany me. Now I am confused whether I need to learn how to live alone or I need to ask her to spare some time for me. I am looking in to find out the reason for which this is happening with me. I hope I will certainly find it soon.

A true fact about teacher-taught relationship in present scenario

Man is that species of the earth that cannot survive alone. It may be due to the innate nature of human beings or his socializing attitude that we cannot see any man in total solitude. Although in early times there were numerous saints who used to practice total separateness from materialistic world and went on the way of spirituality. But if we analyse even there also, these saints were in the company of their spirituality or what we can call their respective Gods whom they prayed. I never thought of about the importance of relationships in life. The word relationship does not refer to only our personal or immediate relations that we get naturally by birth but has a wide scope to cover. There are certain short timed relationships that we are unable to forget for whole of our life. One such relation is the one that we make with our teachers.

Have you ever made a little effort to analyse this relationship? The reply will obviously be more of a “No”. Most of us are busy in strengthening other relationships when we merely remember the teacher who taught us how to spell out and pronounce the word ‘relationship’. In this article I want to focus on the importance of bonding between a teacher and her students. A teacher is next to motherly figure during initial days of our schooling. She is the one who helps us in getting accommodated in the strangest environment of school as it is the first formal setting of our life. She lays the foundation stone of our personality. I still remember my Kinder Garden teacher who was so patient in her behaviour that she used to remain quiet and calm even when we shouted and cried like demons.

Her affection is the same for all students. She is not merely concerned with providing bookish knowledge to us rather we get all other types of knowledge like moral, ethical, social, etc. from her only. I must say that the relation of a teacher and student comes just after parents in the list of importance and affection. But in modern times, where we are forgetting about the importance of relationship of parents and children, how can we expect someone to value the teacher student relationships? These days, both the extremes are available with us. There are students who value and remember their educationists for whole life and those for whom teachers are merely machineries who provide lectures to them. A teacher lives whole of her life through the eyes of students. So, we must learn to value our teachers because simply saying a “Thanks” from core of heart can payback the debt of what teachers do for us. Do value them; they are the stepping stones of your success.

Have guts to accept your mistakes

It often happens in case of a child that he wants to hide his mistake or so to say he is afraid of the consequences. This can be accepted if a child does so. But if we youngsters start behaving in such a manner, what would it be called? It is undoubtedly, heights of irresponsibility. All of us are fond of driving our vehicles on high speed. Have you ever wondered what if your car just loses control due to high speed or if it bangs into some other vehicle? Certainly we do not have that much spare time to give it a thought. But when it is a lovely Sunday afternoon and you are standing in your balcony taking a look on the activities happening around through the window, and suddenly two cars clash with each other, the one that is one the wrong side hits the car coming from other side very badly that it bashes into the garden of a house nearby, you cannot stop your mind muscles recollect the view of the scene time and again. All this happened before my eyes last weekend. Although everybody came out no sooner after the happening of this unfortunate incident, but the person at fault made it to run away from the spot without bothering about the people whom he hit for even a second. We all helped the people in the car to come out and found that all the three inside were bleeding badly. And, there was a baby also. How cruel he could have been.

Are we so cowardly that we can’t even accept our mistake?

Trying to make the residual emerge and become dominant

This Saturday was one of the most crowded Saturdays of this academic year. The event and the reason being bhog ceremony of Akhand Path of Shri Guru Granth Saheb were to be held on 5^th of February like every year. But we as students of M.A.2^nd year, so called the senior most class were supposed to attend classes as well. As Rajesh Sir has planned we were ready for getting a long lecture of more than an hour. Unlike usual days, today I reached college somewhat early. Having enough time to take my eyes all around the college premises, I observed dominance of Punjabi suits among girls and traditional Kurta pajamas in otherwise handsome hunks of my college. I felt as if I have entered a fair. Everyone was moving here and there. Almost every boy was with covered head. Just a glimpse of this scene made me feel as if I am in a traditional fair.

In the class we were to discuss about Raymond William’s text, Dominant, Residual and Emergent. Honestly speaking I was in a mood to attend the lecture very attentively which we generally don’t. After the class was over, we went to the boys’ hostel mess where the path ceremony was going on. May be because I am a student of literature or without any reason, I am in habit of analysing or observing everything that happens around me from a different perspective. I think the religious feelings of the students of my college were ‘trying to make the residual emerge and become dominant’. As dominant stands for a force that exists in power for a particular period of time, residual is a force that was dominant in past but still has its effectiveness in present and emergent is the force that questions the dominance of the dominant forces, I think on that day fashion of western dresses was being questioned by the religious feelings of students and most of the crowd was in Indian dresses. I think we can get modernized to any extent but can't deny having those traditional feelings that we as Indians have acquired as a heritage in our blood.

I don’t know to what extent my observation is correct but I thought I must put it into words because according to me, “it’s better to write, express and let what you think come out of mind, so that there can enough empty space in it to make further observations.”