At some point in life, a point comes when there is sudden outburst of human being. In my case, it happens with loud cries. I do not cry very easily but at some point, even I feel it’s more than enough and I am not able to ignore crying. Just like all those days when I cried aloud, today is also one day when I am feeling like crying. There are so many reason that I am not able to count. My heart and head is feeling so burdened that I can’t express it in words. I just wanna say, “I WANT TO CRY”. I was avoiding giving it a consideration and trying to keep myself busy with other things. Even after putting my best efforts, I am unable to control this emotional outburst. I am feeling very helpless and weak at this point of time. They say if you can control yourself, you can rule the world. But I am unable to control my tears. Tell me what should I do now? I think my yesterday is ruling my today. But I can assure one thing. I will not let it affect my tomorrow. I have always put my best in life. I had tried to take all people I know with me. But I think this time I have failed in making my bonding with my sister perfect. She is happier moving out and roaming with other people than me. On the other hand, my world revolves around her only. I have made a stronger bonding with her from last three years since we shifted in our home here. She is my parents, buddy and of course my guide. I do not whether I am a fool or she is cleverer than me that she is able to enjoy everything without me and I keep on waiting for the time she will get free and accompany me. Now I am confused whether I need to learn how to live alone or I need to ask her to spare some time for me. I am looking in to find out the reason for which this is happening with me. I hope I will certainly find it soon.
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